Hope and problems

People say the last thing you will always have for you is hope, but some end up losing their hope a lot sooner than reaching the bottom. I consider myself to be a positive person. Why? Because no matter the situation, I hardly panic and hardly look distressed, because I know I am the solution to everything that is bothering me. It's up to me if I let it bother me or not, maybe it's stupid and naive to think things will solve by them selves eventually, but it always worked for me. How? It's very simple. You need to realize that panicking or crying won't solve the actual problem. Some problems need time, others need your involvement, while some problems are not problems at all, just your refusal to their nature. 

Homosexuality, for example, is not a problem, even if you have those kinds of inclinations, it's other people's problem if they have something against it. 

Being weak is also not a problem, because if it were, the solution is just too simple, straighten up, no one is saying you need to be cold or made of stone, but being weak is something you allow yourself to be and believe me, being vulnerable is the last thing you want to be in this world.

Debts, money, fame, power, all of these are just plain results of your life's work. If you have any of them or none of them is something you hold responsibility over. Because every problem is it's own solution, so if the problem came from you, you probably, no, surely also hold the solution in your hand, but most would rather flaunt their faults and problems rather than solve them. It's a pity, because positiveness can do so much for you. You should never loose hope in yourself, when you are the answer to all of your questions.

The odd one out

I am pretty much an open minded person, so I don't really like to label people or settle for stereotypes, though I find myself in that position several times, I try, because I, too, feel like the odd one out sometimes. It's pretty hard to hang on knowing you are different from the people around you and most times I'm really glad I have friends that like me and accept me the way I am.  Even so, what I'm trying to say here is that it's okay to be different.

You should never be ashamed of who you are, well maybe if your nature hurts other people physically and psychologically. I'm talking mostly about people labeled: geeks, gays, transgendered, ugly etc. There's nothing wrong being yourself even if society says otherwise. There are plenty of reasons other people want to hold you down, mostly because they are all cowards: afraid of the unknown, the different, the stepping out of the pattern.

There's nothing wrong about love. There never was or will be anything wrong about love. Love is never wrong. And I'll repeat it as many times as it is needed, until the thick skull-ed people understand.

Friends

I am really thankful for my socialization skills, why? Cuz I made a lot of friends during my life time, both real time friend and internet friends. I'm sorry that I could not stay in touch with all of my friends but I'm really glad I was able to have them share their precious time with me. They say women have a good memory when it comes to people they had feelings for and I believe that to be true. I will always cherish the people which have been and are dear to me and I haven't forgotten any of them, I still carry them in my mind and heart and wish them the very best. There are some friends with which I unfortunately can't get in touch with, even though I really want to. Sure a lot of things changed and I even got married in the meantime, but I haven't forgotten them and I hope they remember me as well, seldom, at times and wish me for the best.

A psychologist once told me friends are nothing but bandages for old wounds, the more friends you have, the deeper the wound. I don't believe it though, because people even if they are born alone and die alone, weren't meant to be alone. That's why there's so many of us, so we can be friends and help one another, support one another and cherish one another. I'm sorry for all the friends I hurt along the way as I am sure they are sorry they hurt me. Even so, I hope their life holds precious memories, a lot more than we shared together.

The sad part about growing up is you'll meet a lot of new people, people that want to be your friends, unfortunately, only a few of them will be able to stay in your life forever and most will only play a small part in your life. I hope there will come a day when I can meet my old and lost friends once more. 

 

Until then, have a nice life.~

Unrequited love

I think there's no painless love in this world, every kind of love has it's ups and downs, but the most wonderful kind and the most difficult is a love that is unrequited. I remember a saying that went something like this: When faced with a decision of choosing between two people, choose the one that loves you the most instead of the one that you love most. But as usual, I don't follow my own advices, thus I chose the one I love most, because my own person quote goes something like this: I'd rather spend all my life chasing after the man I love , than spending my life with a man that loves me. It's okay for a bit of selfishness in love, it shows how much you love one person, how much you are willing to sacrifice and let go, for the one you love. I left my family, my home town, my friends and moved to where my beloved was living, but I don't regret it. It was a selfish choice on my behalf but then again... the things we do for love.

Unrequited love is painful, but every feeling has its worth, don't let go just because. In life, all the things you want, won't just come to you, you have to make them come, it's about how much dedication you put in your actions. It doesn't mean you love might remain unrequited forever. You need to put your heart out, take chances before you love gets stolen in front of you and if it's too late, learn from that mistake and move on. It's not easy, I'm not going to lie to you, it might scar you for life, but time stops for no one my friend, not even for you. Love comes and goes, even when you think you've grasped it, it might still escape your fingers.