Space

I was thinking lately how men sometimes want to have their own space and weigh their own options and decisions or even to temper their moods. I always, well, almost always understood when it happened to someone else, yet no one seems to understand it happens to me to, a woman. We all need our space so maybe because I am usually cheery, people assume I don't have bad days or days when I just don't want to give a fuck. Sorry for the language, but it's just how I feel. Today I simply do not give a fuck. I just wish to lie peaceful and not have to "act out" as people would need me to be, just today I don't want to force my smile, just today I don't want to please anybody, just not care.

I know it's not a liberty I can afford, but once in a while, when I'm tired and mood-less, I want people to understand and just give me that tiny space where I can kill all feelings and just, I don't know, not have to play the "good girl", "bad girl" or any kind of girl for that matter. I just need to recharge my battery and to refill power source.

I need space.