By nature, I'm kind of independent, but I guess marriage changes people, like so many other things and frankly speaking, it's the one thing I would like to keep, even if I have to keep it aside for later times. BUT it seems like the good relationships around me have made me think I don't need it, when it seems I still very much do. Misunderstandings are created and people are getting hurt, that much I understand, because I am someone who kept insisting talk and conversation are very important to any kind of relationships, because it clears things out. Still, people make mistakes and I don't mean putting your trust in other humans is a mistake, but sometimes you need to look around to better understand what you can trust people with, because sometimes you can trust a person with a secret, but not with punctuality and so on and so forth.
I almost always use the excuse about me being a natural air-head, but I don't think people really understand the meaning of it. No matter, friends understand, that much I'm sure, to what extent? I don't want to find out, because it may change my opinion on some people. I like having friends and I like deep talking and I love to spend time with them, but for me it doesn't really need to be a holiday and when playing the good friend card, I'd rather spend my time with one friend who is alone on the New Years Eve, than with 5 or 6 of them who have other people they can hang out with. Why? Maybe because I think I might make a difference, I dunno, because it would have been nice if we all could have invited our own friends and make a hella big party, the more the merrier.
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